Its sunny outside.
I have a new motorbike.
I'm about to start a new job which will enable me to be home more, not live in constant mess and actually try to constructively start to lose some weight.
I'm feeling quite loved up.
And I have some cheques to pay in to the bank which will make my savings look healthier.
All petty things, but life has felt like such a struggle at times recently, with one thing after another just being difficult that it is a relief to wake up in such a good mood.
Saturday 28 July 2007
Wednesday 25 July 2007
Am I grumpy?
I finish my current job in a weeks time and tonight is my "leaving do". I really like most of the people I work with, and I really hope that a number of them remain friends when I move on, but...
...I really hate this sort of thing, it is exactly why I try and avoid letting colleagues know when my birthday is as well. Its hard to put my finger on exactly why it makes me feel so uncomfortable, I'm not sure if it is as simple as not liking being the centre of attention or whether it is just the slight cringe worthyness of the boss telling you how much you'll be missed etc whilst inside you know that in a couple of weeks any gap you've left will have spontaneously closed up.
In essence I don't want to go tonight, and I fear that I am being too grumpy about it. I just need to grit my teeth and smile sweetly, whilst being gracious and charming...quite a challenge I think!
On another point (and yes I know I am getting ranty here) I would happily jump on the tube to go to a decent pub, you know, nice ambience, reasonable drink selection (John Smiths and Foster do NOT count) and interesting bar snacks. However other people don't seem to feel the same way, am I odd?
Right moaning over, for a couple of hours at least.
...I really hate this sort of thing, it is exactly why I try and avoid letting colleagues know when my birthday is as well. Its hard to put my finger on exactly why it makes me feel so uncomfortable, I'm not sure if it is as simple as not liking being the centre of attention or whether it is just the slight cringe worthyness of the boss telling you how much you'll be missed etc whilst inside you know that in a couple of weeks any gap you've left will have spontaneously closed up.
In essence I don't want to go tonight, and I fear that I am being too grumpy about it. I just need to grit my teeth and smile sweetly, whilst being gracious and charming...quite a challenge I think!
On another point (and yes I know I am getting ranty here) I would happily jump on the tube to go to a decent pub, you know, nice ambience, reasonable drink selection (John Smiths and Foster do NOT count) and interesting bar snacks. However other people don't seem to feel the same way, am I odd?
Right moaning over, for a couple of hours at least.
Monday 23 July 2007
Postal strike
I was going to blame my lack of posting on the postal strike which occurred early last week, however I realised that:
a) That doesn't make any sense, and
b) Its my blog so actually I don't have to explain :o)
In reality it has just been the busiest week! For one horrible moment it seemed as though the insurance company were going to refuse to pay out on the fire damage and we were going to be left with £20k worth of charred building, all because someone had originally sold me the wrong type of insurance policy. My best stern voice and underlying threat of court action seemed to get it sorted and on Saturday a team of munchkins came and demolished the damaged walls and structures.
I say munchkins, but they were actually post GCSE lads who the building firm is using for demolitions as they are swamped with flood damage all over the country. After my initial dismay at their ages, they proved to be pretty good workers, and seem to have done a good job....well there are no walls or building left just a lot of hardcore and a very full skip!
On a positive note, the motorbike insurance has paid out, and I didn't need to demand a better settlement. And my new motorbike is being picked up today :0)
Oh and I managed to actually run all the way round the park! I've been doing a run / walk programme because I'm becoming a lard arse again and feel quite rough and today was a real milestone. Strangely it feels much more satisfying than a bit weight loss, so maybe I should learn something from that?
a) That doesn't make any sense, and
b) Its my blog so actually I don't have to explain :o)
In reality it has just been the busiest week! For one horrible moment it seemed as though the insurance company were going to refuse to pay out on the fire damage and we were going to be left with £20k worth of charred building, all because someone had originally sold me the wrong type of insurance policy. My best stern voice and underlying threat of court action seemed to get it sorted and on Saturday a team of munchkins came and demolished the damaged walls and structures.
I say munchkins, but they were actually post GCSE lads who the building firm is using for demolitions as they are swamped with flood damage all over the country. After my initial dismay at their ages, they proved to be pretty good workers, and seem to have done a good job....well there are no walls or building left just a lot of hardcore and a very full skip!
On a positive note, the motorbike insurance has paid out, and I didn't need to demand a better settlement. And my new motorbike is being picked up today :0)
Oh and I managed to actually run all the way round the park! I've been doing a run / walk programme because I'm becoming a lard arse again and feel quite rough and today was a real milestone. Strangely it feels much more satisfying than a bit weight loss, so maybe I should learn something from that?
Sunday 15 July 2007
Read this blog
I started this post cos I wanted to thank Rollergirl for her support after I was feeling slightly despondent the other day.
Her blog is amazing and always leaves me inspired and wishing I had her writing abilities.
Thanks again!
Her blog is amazing and always leaves me inspired and wishing I had her writing abilities.
Thanks again!
The british beach
I've noticed in the last couple of months that many of the "high end" glossies including Vogue and Harpers have had articles on how cool it is to holiday in the British countryside. Well..dah...yes! As kids we spent all of our family holidays around the UK and had some fab times, I know this was somewhat motivated by lack of cash but I also know that neither I, nor my sisters, would complain about this in any way.
Consequently we find ourselves replicating these types of breaks at a drop of a hat. Today was one of those days...ahhh lovely Southwold!
Saturday 14 July 2007
Apparently noone is reading this...
...and I don't know whether to be glad or disappointed.
My thought process goes something like this
1) Noone is reading my blog...shit I must be really boring!
2) Ahhh but that means I can write whatever I want to, and express all those views I tend to shy away from in case someone I know recognises me
3) But then the blog would be more interesting and people might start to read it, one of them might recognise me and my life would become that bit harder
....arghhhhh!
My thought process goes something like this
1) Noone is reading my blog...shit I must be really boring!
2) Ahhh but that means I can write whatever I want to, and express all those views I tend to shy away from in case someone I know recognises me
3) But then the blog would be more interesting and people might start to read it, one of them might recognise me and my life would become that bit harder
....arghhhhh!
Tuesday 10 July 2007
I know I need to do something but I'm really putting it off.
We have an elderly neighbour who has been like a Grandma to us since I was born. She has always been fiercely independent, although has always accepted and welcomed our love and care. In fact she has been more like family to us than most of our extended family.
But she has taken a real downturn in the last 12-18 months, not suprising really since she turned 96 last month, but nevertheless its really hard to see someone who has been so strong and independent turning into someone who really needs a lot of care but doesn't want to accept it. She is really frail now, and quite confused most of the time, but refuses the help she needs to keep her well and safe.
I'm off to see her now, meeting my sister so we can pop in together. There is no real purpose behind this post except for my sadness at how unhappy she is and how she is struggling. Its really hard to love someone so much that you would rather they slipped away peacefully in their chair than struggled on like this.
We have an elderly neighbour who has been like a Grandma to us since I was born. She has always been fiercely independent, although has always accepted and welcomed our love and care. In fact she has been more like family to us than most of our extended family.
But she has taken a real downturn in the last 12-18 months, not suprising really since she turned 96 last month, but nevertheless its really hard to see someone who has been so strong and independent turning into someone who really needs a lot of care but doesn't want to accept it. She is really frail now, and quite confused most of the time, but refuses the help she needs to keep her well and safe.
I'm off to see her now, meeting my sister so we can pop in together. There is no real purpose behind this post except for my sadness at how unhappy she is and how she is struggling. Its really hard to love someone so much that you would rather they slipped away peacefully in their chair than struggled on like this.
Saturday 7 July 2007
07/07/07
I woke up this morning to a radio report about how lucky today is supposed to be, another indication of our society's obsession with numbers, and just had a nagging feeling that something wasn't quite right.
As I looked out over the burnt and broken wreckage of what was the garage I suddenly remembered...
Sitting at my desk in Leeds, fielding phone calls from distressed family members who knew or thought their loved ones were in London
Phoning my OH to ask him to drive from Birmingham to get me from Leeds, partly because we were told no trains were running and partly because I just wanted him close
Desperately trying to get hold of people I know and love to check they were ok
Driving through beautiful countryside on a gorgeous summers day, happy with my partner beside me (who had just got a job he really wanted) but also devastated for the terror that was being unleashed on our country
But nothing really bad touched us, everyone we cared about was ok, and a week later the near misses were just that for us. Near, but far enough away to not mean anything.
Others weren't so lucky, and today, two years on, we remember them.
As I looked out over the burnt and broken wreckage of what was the garage I suddenly remembered...
Sitting at my desk in Leeds, fielding phone calls from distressed family members who knew or thought their loved ones were in London
Phoning my OH to ask him to drive from Birmingham to get me from Leeds, partly because we were told no trains were running and partly because I just wanted him close
Desperately trying to get hold of people I know and love to check they were ok
Driving through beautiful countryside on a gorgeous summers day, happy with my partner beside me (who had just got a job he really wanted) but also devastated for the terror that was being unleashed on our country
But nothing really bad touched us, everyone we cared about was ok, and a week later the near misses were just that for us. Near, but far enough away to not mean anything.
Others weren't so lucky, and today, two years on, we remember them.
Friday 6 July 2007
How true?
I can get a record player, and a generator.
Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I dont live in poverty, i got a little bit of money and i've got a healthy body.
I'm not going to let stuff get me upset, and i wont let all the little things get me depressed.
when i was a young boy i got a stereo and i taped all the songs straight off the radio.
the sounds that the bands made, and the melodies is all i need to make me feel free.
Sometimes you get so low, you don't know why, or a little upset all inside.
May i remind you? that you don't live in poverty, you got your youth, and you got food in your belly.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I dont live in poverty, i got a little bit of money and i've got a healthy body. I'm not going to let stuff get me upset, and i wont let all the little things get me depressed.
when i was a young boy i got a stereo and i taped all the songs straight off the radio.
the sounds that the bands made, and the melodies is all i need to make me feel free.
Sometimes you get so low, you don't know why, and you get a little unsettled inside. May i reind you? that you don't live in poverty, you got your youth, and you got a roof over your head.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I'll set up a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better
Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I dont live in poverty, i got a little bit of money and i've got a healthy body.
I'm not going to let stuff get me upset, and i wont let all the little things get me depressed.
when i was a young boy i got a stereo and i taped all the songs straight off the radio.
the sounds that the bands made, and the melodies is all i need to make me feel free.
Sometimes you get so low, you don't know why, or a little upset all inside.
May i remind you? that you don't live in poverty, you got your youth, and you got food in your belly.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I dont live in poverty, i got a little bit of money and i've got a healthy body. I'm not going to let stuff get me upset, and i wont let all the little things get me depressed.
when i was a young boy i got a stereo and i taped all the songs straight off the radio.
the sounds that the bands made, and the melodies is all i need to make me feel free.
Sometimes you get so low, you don't know why, and you get a little unsettled inside. May i reind you? that you don't live in poverty, you got your youth, and you got a roof over your head.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I'll set up a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better.
I can get a record player, and a generator. Generate the music that makes you feel better
Thursday 5 July 2007
Ice cream and the Proclaimers
I've managed to get tickets for the Ben and Jerry's Sundae, on the Sunday. Ice cream, cool bands and my sisters for company I'm so looking forward to it :o)
http://www.benjerry.co.uk/sundae/bands.php
http://www.benjerry.co.uk/sundae/bands.php
Monday 2 July 2007
When arsonists attack
Thought you might like to see some pictures of the infamous fire damage.
That was my motorbike in the second one
Sunday 1 July 2007
Comfort shopping
I decided to wander into the city this afternoon meaning to go to the library and have a coffee, as well as replacing my Dr Feelgood.
I completely failed to make it to the library as I got distracted by a new big New Look and then looking for something to wear to my masters graduation later this month. In my browsing I came across two fab new purchases! A silvery parka I have been looking at in Oasis for ages, reduced from £85 to £20 and a tunic type dress from FCUK which I am currently wearing with brown leggings, and very comfortable it is too!
Oh and they had Bad Gal Blue back in stock at Benefit too!
I completely failed to make it to the library as I got distracted by a new big New Look and then looking for something to wear to my masters graduation later this month. In my browsing I came across two fab new purchases! A silvery parka I have been looking at in Oasis for ages, reduced from £85 to £20 and a tunic type dress from FCUK which I am currently wearing with brown leggings, and very comfortable it is too!
Oh and they had Bad Gal Blue back in stock at Benefit too!
Things that have made me happy
I thought I would kick this off with a selection of photos which make me smile. After a week where my home had an arson attack, but thankfully my living area isn't damaged and noone was hurt, things that make me smile seem the best way forward. So here we have a fantastic swiss cow on top of a mountain, my friend's wedding dress, my new bag and sadly my bike, which is no more (thanks arsonists!)
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